This site is not for anyone. If you are a disillusioned graduate of our lovely western society you might find
this site helpful. Approaching Infinity contains wealth of material by
Alan J. Rudner where he shares his life experience, knowledge,
realizations and the thing he found useful on the Path. The material is
meant to assist the seeker in providing information, data and insights,
from many angles, which cover a wide spectrum and deals with the
complexities of modern life in a comprehensive manner. You might find
this material a nourishment for your essential part, your being, your
soul - that part of you that can grow and develop. Problems such as
anxiety, pain, suffering, sorrow, hypnotic sleep, lack of connection
with the Higher, are dealt with by putting them in a wider context
taking birth and death into account.
Alan on Approaching Infinity:
- "We are in a period of history,
the likes of which mankind has never before had to face. World-wide
hysterics. There is nothing remotely close to it in what we call
recorded history. There are reports of a sunken continent of Atlantis
way back when – a highly developed, scientific civilization which
brought about its own destruction. We are again living in that kind
of a mad self-destructive wave. " (Anxitiy please. p. 23 ).
-"can we face the current situation? We’re on the edge of incredible
change, coming at us fast. ...a
great shift is taking place, that will ‘conclude’ in 2012 – a key date
in the Mayan Calendar. Between now and 2012 there will be more change –
now dig this one – more change than the world has experienced in the
past 26,000 years!
Such an immense shift must be in CONSCIOUSNESS – not merely some super
hi-tec space-toys, or even some awesome event of nature, or war.(Worst
Case Scenario)
-"Again, pains of all
sorts result from twisted vibrations within your organism, caused by
the unbalanced and corrupted thought patterns and activities of
countless generations of semi-conscious human beings, disconnected from
Higher Centers. The cumulative results have now reached a 'NADIR' – the
maximum possible for human beings to contain. It's now a case of
madness, total, or the Truth that 'you not yet know'.
But, you can, now, know. That is what is so absolutely remarkable about this current piece of time.
What
is that Truth? It's your Cosmic Connection. That may sound fancy, like
a fantasy to some, but it really is a FACT. In fact, your only possible
escape. Here we have the gist of all religious 'propaganda'. An issue,
though, as real as real can be. " (Anxiety please. p. 40 )
[-"The world that we are born into . . .. Each man,
rich or poor, smart or stupid continues to be a victim of random
sickness, accident, death, war and violence from each and every
direction. He has devised artificial hearts and heart transplants in an
effort to overcome this great disease / killer but is dying in droves
from cancer. He manufactures bigger and more effective guns for his
self protection but is subject to more physical violence than ever
before in history and now with the ever present possibility of
immediate and total destruction. (Directory )]
Alan on the Work and its aim:
-"You know, there’s so little spare energy, to look at other people,
or even to WONDER how they deal with anything, really, other than when
they get irritable. But there are people in this room, as well as
others, that relate to the Work at times so seriously that you MIGHT
wonder – exactly what does it mean to THEM? It’s just a word! What is
the Work? You could ask Dina for instance, she would also say she is
working and you can ask Nili, she would probably also say…you could ask
Laurence, he would be working, and you can ask Jacky and he’s also
working, not only working but teaching sometimes. And I could go on and
on, of people that you know.
Now, are they doing the same thing you are doing? Does the word
’Work’ mean the same thing to each of them? God knows! Do you ever
really think about it? I came across someone recently in K’lil that got
more than a little irritated with me. He said, ”don’t you SEE I’m
working?”
So, it’s a very interesting question, no? If you’re ’working’, what
are you actually doing, why are you doing it, and what do you expect
the result to be? What was said before, when I asked about Hanna?
Knowledge? Okay, ’knowledge’. Then what’s this knowledge good for?
Knowledge for what? Oh, you can say ’self knowledge’. Okay, self
knowledge…I mean... you can juggle with a vocabulary very easily. What
is the AIM, what is the purpose of the Work? What is the Work, other
than your relationship to it? Did anyone ever think of that? The Work
has its own aims. What would you say the aim of the Work is?
....
The hope of the Work is to have a SURVIVABLE ’something’. Are you
aware of that? Or is it for your pleasure and pride and significance in
life? What do you want more, a soul that can survive, or to be
’respected’… by whomever... your boyfriend, your children, the banker,
the neighbors. It’s not a small issue.
The issue of the Work is to allow the ’seed’, that YOU are, to grow,
into a Survivable Being. Does that sound new to you? Can you think of
anything that is more significant?
I’ll tell you something else. For a SERIOUS worker, any other person
who is working is as important to them as themself. That’s the BOTTOM
LINE of ’external considering’. And that’s the bottom line of this
conversation. ( Talk with Three sisters )
-"Hanna is busy. She has her music, work with children and art as
well. These are places where she can give something and get something.
There is a hope in those things, right? There is hope in the family,
there is hope in art, there is hope in music and there is hope in the
children. Nothing NEW about that! That’s not ’New Meaning’. What that
has got to do with the building of a Soul, other than maybe indirectly?
What has that got to do with non-critical self-observation, with
self-knowledge, now? What’s that got to do with non-identification,
with self-remembering, now?
When you’re IDENTIFIED with something, you DON’T remember yourself.
Your ’I’ is in what you’re identified with. It’s one thing to be AWARE
- knowing what the mind, the emotions are doing, what the body is
sensing, to be aware NON-CRITICALLY – and it’s quite another thing to
be IDENTIFIED with it, calling it ’I’. Because, when you do that, YOU
are not really present, not remembering yourSelf.
Everything is always changing, outside and inside. There is ONE
THING in you that doesn’t change. That’s your CONSCIOUSNESS – where you
can be established in Real I. Everything else passes on the screen of
consciousness. It starts and it goes. And you live in the
identification of those PICTURES, and get an as if ’identity’ in it.
It’s not your REAL IDENTITY at the very Source – it’s not ’real’.
There is something extremely essential in what was just said. That
which is real in you can SURVIVE THE DEATH OF THE BODY. There is
something really worthwhile to DO, on top of this generally
comic/tragic trip. At the very least, not to ’slip down’.
Well, you might come back for another try on this, or maybe some
other planet, in case this one gets blown up, which is a very real
possibility.
So, Hanna has her interests. Those kind of experiences need not
steal one’s PRESENCE. If they DON’T steal your presence, that presence
gets strengthened. And when they do steal your presence, it sucks you
dry. You just paid with SOUL ENERGY, that you’re going to need the
moment you die, which is sooner than you think. Now, what do you want
to do before you go? Another kind of ’high’? You want another.…what? ( Talk with Three sisters )
"The principles of Work are concerned with the building of a SOUL.
Something that is already in you that can become strong enough to
resist all the bullshit, the fear, the abuse, anything. To really come
ALIVE within the HOLY TRIAD of non-critical self-observation,
non-identification and Self-remembering. Those three things go
together! They strengthen the REAL in a person at the expense of
everything else. Until that becomes a reality, you are not worth shit
to yourself or anyone else, regardless of what you think about your
intelligence, your goodness, or your seriousness. Without that TRIAD
you’re another bouncing ball with a self-image, changing all the time ( Talk with Three sisters )
Alan on secrets and lies:
"I lived in a house where my mother always wanted to pull the window shades down at night. I said, ”Why?” She says, ”people might look in”. I was just a little boy. I said, ”what difference does it make?” Also, as a child, she said to me, ”look, you don’t have to repeat everything that you hear in the house.” That went in one ear and out the other. I didn’t know what she was talking about. We LIVE in secrets and lies!
Here is another little hint: LIVE YOUR LIFE LIKE EVERYTHING IS KNOWN. Everything IS known, one way or another. What a DRAIN of energy it takes to be secretive.( Talk with Three sisters )